Psalm 121

In the last few months I have had to rely on Him more than at any other time in my life. For a while now Patti and I have been struggling financially. We know that lots of people these days are in really bad financial shape. When it comes to finances we both struggle with understanding the purpose behind the struggles. We have felt that we have been obedient and trusting, but in reality we both still worry. Worry means that we still haven't let go of control and trusted the Lord that He's got our backs and our best interests at all times. This is a very tough lesson that Patti and I have been learning. We both have had to struggle to get back with God on a daily basis, because of some under-lying resentment. So we both admitted that to each other and to God. Wouldn't you know, He started presenting himself in different ways. A few extra bucks here and there. He started giving Patti the strength and energy to start doing some more work from home. He also has presented me with several options for a different way through this. See, I don't feel that he opens one door. I feel like He leads us to the hallway of opportunity. Down this corridor are various opportunities of faith. My family and I have been presented with a few different options. On faith we have decided that I should resign from my current company, which is the biggest most well established in this industry and take a chance with a company that has started up in the last 18 months. The pay is better, but the opportunity could be GREAT. Their would be no ceiling with this company, and I have the opportunity to take this company, who is doing well, to a very special level. God has truly blessed my faithfulness by giving me the opportunity to do things that I love to do. I love growing businesses, people and teams. I also love serving people. This will give me a chance to do all of these things and hopefully make some money doing it. We also have an amazing gift of a fall back plan. If He deems it his plan, then we could end up back in Phoenix. We would of course be accepted with open arms from family and friends. We are still scared, but we both trust that our faithfulness to Him and to each other will be rewarded.

In July our beautiful baby girl Ronni was born! She is so sweet and precious. The experience once again started off interesting to say the least. Patti was hospitalized with some un-known sickness that ended up being Mono. We were so blessed in the actual birthing experience. God made everything as smooth as could be. A couple of weeks went by and Patti started feeling very sick. She was inexplicable severe pain and discomfort. She was nauseous and constantly exhausted. We had to go to the ER. For the first several days they had no idea what was ailing her and causing the pain that she was experiencing. She didn't have the strength or the energy to keep Ronni with her at the hospital, so I had to take Ronni home. I had no idea what a woman really deals with until I was home alone with a 2 year old and a new born baby. I was feeding every 3 hours, making sure nap times were on schedule, making sure Matthew was getting fed well, spending quality time with both of them, car pooling them to and from the hospital so that Mommy could see her children, etc... During making sure all of these different things that go done, I realized that I hadn't had any time for myself or time to go to God. One night after a very stressful and defeating day I finally broke down and fell to my knees and turned everything over to God. It was the most intimate and emotional that I had every been with God. Simultaneously Patti was having the exact same emotional conversation with God while lying in her hospital bed. From this point on Patti started improving every day. Dealing with all of the daily tasks became smoother for me, and then shortly there after my mother and sister arrived to assist and support. All God wanted for Patti and I to say was, "OK. You're in charge, and we trust you whole hearted!"

So between finances, health, and not knowing where are future will lead us we absolutely have to rely on our Lord and Savior. Patti is still sick, our medical bills might not be covered, and our future in San Diego is uncertain. Patti and I are still be tested to be trusting in all circumstances, but we're positive that He will provide a way out. We are still working on lifting our eyes towards the hills.


Psalm 121
A song of ascents.
1 I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.